#like genuinely that’s kinda what their friendship feels like
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can i ask for your thoughts about sunstone as a ship and their dynamic 🥺
Sorry for taking a while, words hard
God. Sunstone. Both in regular canon and SolarFlare they're absolute cringefails to me. The latter just hide it better. Gonna be talking about canon for the most part here
Under the cut because wall of text lmao
Honestly canon sunstone is pretty tragic? Its two flawed people making every single bad decision, and eventually losing eachother as a result. By the time they actually Think and realise what they both did wrong, its much too late to apologise and make things right
I think that if the circumstances were different they'd be able to have a really good, wholesome relationship
Maybe if Pebbles was less desperate to find the triple affirmative. Maybe if the situation before Moons collapse was less tense, if Suns contacted him earlier. If Suns had thought a little harder about the consequences of sending that gold pearl, if they were a little less weak for him, less indulgent.
I suppose that hindsight is everything. They both regret what happened between them. Especially at the end there.
Okay now for less depressing shit lmao
Their relationship was purely mentor/mentee for a little while and slowly turned into a very close friendship. They both enjoy art, poetry and music and share many views, which they bonded over. And while Suns might not share the same love for history that he has, they're more than willing to listen. And maybe go out of their way to find out new tidbits for him if they can
They never confess, i don't think. They both develop feelings, but Pebbles is too busy to pay much attention to it and Suns just doesn't quite have the nerve to do anything except hint at it. Though this Does end in them sending him a personalised ring via Spearmaster. Which. Is basically a marriage proposal. At least by Ancient standards.
Pebbles doesn't realise this, mostly because that is a tradition practiced purely by the People. And since he's not exactly aware or paying attention to his own feelings he doesn't clock it for what it is.
He does send them back a ring though. Basically treating it like exchanging friendship bracelets or something 💀 Suns about has a heart attack. From what they know he doesn't share their feelings, and they're too much of a coward to inform him about what the gesture meant, so. They end up unofficially officially married. And then unofficially divorced once the second pearl reaches him in Spearmaster's campaign
Pebbles finally gets his shit together sometime during Arti's campaign. She brings back a pearl about marriage traditions and it suddenly clicks for him. Not really the best time to find out, honestly. What with everything going on. Not even truly Finding Out, since he can't actually ask them if thats what the whole thing meant.
They never speak again, and neither gets closure about it. They both keep their rings though.
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Now a little bit about SolarFlare specifically because they actually get together and meet in person in that! Wont be able to say too much without brain getting on my case for revealing too much though lmao. SF sunstone are Extremely exaggerated in their everything, so obviously not saying canon compliant off the string would be quite like this 🙏
They dont become a thing until they've actually met in person, though the line between being close and being Close was blurred for a bit before this point
Pebbles is the one that says something first, and they become official after that
They're like,, really abnormal about eachother. Like its genuinely obsession for them. They be jealous and posessive and codependent as hell. Both of them. Its not healthy, but they are genuinely really happy with eachother. Kinda made for eachother in that way. They're eachother's favourite people and they Will make it other people's problem
End up marrying at some point (after having an actual conversation about it this time), and its both because they wanna show love and devotion but also because they're very about it being a way to claim eachother. And that being visible to others
I love them and their weird relationship
#this turned into just kind of a ramble really#but ah well#was asked for words and delivered words#if they're weird and dont make sense its because most of this was written at like 2am#rw shipping#rw sunstone#seven red suns#five pebbles#solar flare au
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they were gay they were queer they were homosexuals that were gay please you gotta listen to me please pls plaes
#madagascar#madagascar escape 2 africa#alex the lion#marty the zebra#homosexuals#gays#like genuinely that’s kinda what their friendship feels like#I want them to crossbreed fuck istfg#not tagging Madagascar 3 cuz it makes Alex straight
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i can't believe that a show who's main bread & butter is masturbation jokes really has me like
#had some major realizations about why exactly karamatsu doesn't recognize he could have feelings for kuroba until ->#there's that drastic shift in their relationship after the reunion#i've touched on it a lil before and i kinda wanna make a more detailed post about this specifically#but the long & short of it is that he's actually ignoring the depth of those feelings on purpose#he was genuinely oblivious at the start of things but it's not like he completely lacks self-awareness#so when he does begin to notice that his feelings for them go deeper than just friendship or finding them attractive#he chooses to stay oblivious bc he doesn't want to start getting his hopes up and ruin what he currently has with kuroba#which gets increasingly harder the more kuro shows glimmers of potentially liking him bad#i'm also imagining a moment where his brothers are getting on him about the status of his relationship with kuro ->#after matsuyo brings it up earlier in the day and he kinda snaps at them about it#BUT I'LL GO MORE IN DEPTH ABOUT THAT LATER#i should actually head to bed soon it's late#i stg this show is making me lose it...#mj rambles#ship : kurokara
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I loved NewWave and it's nominated for my top reads 2023, BUT THE JASON FICLET??? I thought it was going to be a light read but it hit me full force in the face because I didn't expect to identify so much with Jason! When I read your Jason it was like I was reading myself and I want you to know that I started reading it early at night and finished it at dawn because I constantly had to stop and cry because of how much my heart resonated with his! loved it
HI THANK YOU <3
I'm glad you identified with him! Jason is very much a character who's a little like me too. He's a born writer, and his way of using fiction to put the world in a framework that he can understand is very relatable. It leaves him a little out of touch with the reality of situations, but that's a feature and not a bug.
I can't relate as much to the racial undercurrent in the story, but I don't want to understate it. It has to suck for Jason to feel constantly compared to the blonde haired blue eyed 'perfect sidekick'. She provides something seen as valuable and ideal that Jason never could. Coming from Steph's viewpoint (and considering canon) the idea of her being unattainable perfection is deeply funny, but it's very real to Jason. Adding in Tim - who's identical to Bruce and comes from the same social strata - makes Jason feel like it's every man for himself.
That's what makes his connection with Bruce even more important, though. He's the polar opposite of Bruce in every way, but although Tim and Bruce are similar in a lot of ways, Jason and Bruce have a deep connection and understanding that Tim and Steph don't. They're both dreamers who make the world a stage, their need for justice comes from a place of great pain, and they love in quiet ways.
Jason's a special kid. Like Steph, he has so much value that he doesn't see. Unlike her, he wants more - he's hungry for it, that life with meaning and kindness. He's finally attained something good, and he's scared of losing it. He has so much to offer that he can't see, and the happiness of the story is when he's seen.
New Wave was my way of giving a character who's been routinely fucked over by canon and sidelined by fandom the spotlight. She's special and perfect and loved and recognized and important because...she's none of those things 'in real life'. I wanted to give that to her. Steph's a character I related to when I was her age, and I wanted to give that to myself too.
Jason came from a similar place. I do think canon & fanon are like...overly obsessed with him lmfao. There's a billion 'Jason joins the manor' stories and it's why I almost didn't write the story lol. But he's rarely given the chance to be a kid, one who exists in his own right - to join the Batfam out of his own choice, which is something bizarrely rare in fic. And kids like Jason are the forgotten ones, and it will always be Jason's dream to show the forgotten children that they're as much Robin as he is.
I'm glad it meant something to you ;-;. This story meant a lot to me too, which is why I can go onnnn about it lol. Thanks for reading and enjoying! <3
#tbh the only reason why the jason story was written besides my demons was the fact that#ive read a ton of jason joins the manor stories and its kinda nuts how in none of them#jason and bruce are like. friends#jason is always downright kidnapped to the manor and he's terrified of bruce until bruce Dad Proposes and theyre happy#its always 'jason realizes bruce is a good dad' and not#jason likes bruce as a person and wants to be around him and decides that this is where he wants to live his life#same on bruce's end. i never feel like there's an actual reason for why he shares his ID with a random street kid#it's always written with an element of soulmates if that makes sense#what makes jason so special? well he's jason todd the second robin#theres no actual in unverse reason why bruce picks jason#and i dont like a kid being someone you 'picked'#anyway similar to how i didnt want bruce to be a straight up father figure to steph and tim#this story was meant to show how bruce is now ready to be an actual father#and how thats shown by him forming a genuine connection born from friendship and resonance#i feel like bruce is chronically assigned Good Dad and not rly given an internal life#he wasnt ready to legitimately parent tim it was something he had to learn#idk the minute a nonPOV character is parent coded they lose all inner life and motivation#which i feel like says something about how fic writers view parents lmofa#that's another rant though#my writing#my asks
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while linebeck is busy studying bellum and enjoying discovering all of his little physical traits up close bellum is just having the time of his life getting to feel body hair for like the first time ever
#the deal with them first physicslly touching is that linebeck really enjoys the little aspects of bellum and finds him#neat and a lot of it is like. being fascinated by him and taking his chance to touch and feel him while also. liking it#and bellum is a demon cephalopod who really really likes that linebeck is a hairy guy its very surface level#bellum x linebeck#salty talks#cuz its like ch 15 is linebeck pov and its the start of them 1) getting more genuinely close and 2) the biology stuff#and bellum’s motives for why hes touching linebeck and what hes getting out of it are vague and a lil murky#and ch 16 is from his perspective and hes just kinda ecstatic to feel linebeck’s body hair he really likes it a lot#he doesnt touch people much other than to kill them so its his first time taking it in and he is a cat with catnip#sets the standards going forth in their close friendship phase before they start figuring stuff out#linebeck figures stuff out bellum kinda just goes along bc he really cares abt linebeck and thinks hes neat#bellum x linebeck fic
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the thing about me is that having a crush is fun for the first little while and then I just slowly become more and more overcome with insecurity about it
#like yeah he's friendly and nice to me but I know there's no chance. NONE. that it means anything at all.#no way. like there's no way he'd ever see me that way. We Just Work Together#and it sucks because I genuinely do enjoy just being friends with him! like there aren't many people I've met#who I genuinely click with and we get along well like that. and we definitely clicked as friends yknow??#and I'm super glad for that. I just feel so stupid for being in love with him when I'm too loud and too awkward and i fidget too much#and I'm just. not an attractive person on ANY level#so like even having a crush is so unrealistic and I hate that. he's the only guy I've ever genuinely wanted to be with#(beyond a brief infatuation that I knew wouldn't work out i was just kinda caught up in the theater stuff yknow)#like.... UGGGHHHH this is bringing up SO many insecurities bc I genuinely want more than a friendship#and gurt called me out the other day by asking how important it is to me that this particular guy likes me back#and I had to play it down bc it's SO important to me like. WHAT am I supposed to do with this??? he's the only guy#I've ever been able to envision a life with and I KNOW daydreaming like that is probably bad and dumb and I just feel#SO stupid for how I'm feeling about this whole thing and yet. I go to church and work with him and it's just really easy and nice#and we work well together and get along and it's just GOOD#and I want that forever#and idk what God is trying to do here but it's making me feel SO STUPID all the time!!!!!! girl help!!!!!!#Lu rambles
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feeling nostalgic for the small sparks of happiness during my otherwise depression-heavy and bullying-laden and self hating teen years tonight aughh
#kinda wishing i could go back in time and try to prevent it all from becoming such a blur from mental illness#wanna fully experience 2007-2011 without all the trauma and The Forgetting 😭#also maybe more fully experience my first genuine friendships between 2011-2017 without the looming mental illness#and the accompanying fragility and volatility. like damn if it wasn't for all of my shortcomings and my weirdness#i would probably still be friends with more people from that time...#but i drove most of them away by being horribly mentally ill and self depreciating and being a total ass to them because of it#no one taught me better at the time and i was a frightened and hurting animal#still feel horrible for being so hurtful to people who loved me in the process but it is what it is i cannot change the past#i know they TRIED their best to make me feel better and help me grow and be a better person but i was not Receiving it in my brain#mental illness took so much from me orz
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vity being the cutest little family:
+ family portraits
#I saw that tweet about mini today and it reminded me so much of what ruby sent on pm that time#it Genuinely warms my heart how happy they are watching the other members be loved ..#and it truly shows how much they love eachother they way they can empathise so well with any one of their fans#they r all in love with eachother and so they're like to luvities ?? Ofc u love that other member ? he's so wonderful ?#sometimes I just think about him saying 'they deserve to be loved' and cry so hard I die#and jungmo has said similar to juni there^#4th gen is this kinda odd group who grew up on kpop in a time where friendships in groups are so forward and it's inviting#so jungmo being a lil army .. literally watching bangtans family relationship as a fan and said 'that's what I want' and it was a main#reason to become an idol#he wanted that second family and he got it and I'm so happy for him and jun 😢😢😢😢#and their classic family portait fjjddj#the others switch around but it's always seri woobin parents and their pet dog jun 💔#I love them ........ so much#there's no reason for this post I'm just feeling vity feels 😭#I'll go back to this for warmth<33#cravity#vity
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Not that anyone who’s been complaining about FCG supposedly not caring about Ashton or whatever actually cares about FCG’s characterization, but for the record: FCG doesn’t typically talk about things that upset them without outside prompting. They didn’t talk about missing or mourning Dancer without someone else bringing her or something related to her up ever and even when they did talk about her, they usually brushed their own feelings to the side after a second. He’s gotten better about expressing himself a little bit, but usually in a “I am feeling bad in a way that might make me literally attack you all, so be aware of that!” sort of way.
It doesn’t matter how much or how little he misses Ashton, FCG was never going to be spending a lot of time vocally expressing that.
#especially given Imogen and Laudna's relationship#chet fearne and fcg all spent an amount of time deferring to Imogen's emotions about Laudna#because they have seen first hand how she kind of falls apart without her#fcg wasn't gonna talk to or around Imogen about his own feelings of missing anyone except in a commiserating sort of way#but yeah#fcg does like and care about Ashton#obviously if you pay any attention to their interactions#BUT they are not close#Ashton doesn't confide in FCG and tends to handle them with kid gloves almost#it's telling that they went to Laudna to complain about what they perceive as FCG behaving badly#but have never made any attempt to talk to FCG themself about it#he just kinda seems to try and gently nudge FCG towards behaviors he approves of without taking the time to explain his feelings#or ask FCG to explain why they behave the way they do#it's interesting!#genuinely#i just think people don't care to actually explore their relationship in favor of projecting either a more intimate friendship#or demonizing FCG for existing for their own sake and not just to feed the audience blorbo crumbs#just kinda venting
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i really am so obsessed with how Double Agent Midvalley is gonna change the vibes with Wolfwood too. like Midvalley and Wolfwood ALREADY have some vibes due to their fight(s) in the manga. but now theyre both double agents but in different directions. two Relatively normal guys who wanted nothing to do with this battle between the angels & are STUCK HERE
also imagining that spiderman meme if/when they ever find out about each other lmfao. like what do you MEAN youre a double agent too?!? what do you MEAN!!!! IT'S FOR HIM!!!!!!!!!!??!?
Yeah.
#speculation nation#itnl shit#the potential is off the charts. but b4 i can get ther ei NEED. TO WRITE. THE CURRENT MOMENT.#really i need to go to bed soon. so i can have more time for writing tomorrow.#for Right Now i wanna reply to the last few comments on my most recent chapter. and then i'll go to bed.#im just thinking about... them <3#idk what it is about midvalley he's just wormed his way into my brain#i still kinda hate him but i also love him. weird feeling.#most of all im lowkey obsessed with the vibes he brings to the table between vash & wolfwood#LOVE my hate-friendship thing i got going between vash & midvalley#sometimes u hate a dude and u genuinely want him to end up okay for his own wellbeing (even as u deny to urself that u feel this way)#sometimes u spend years socializing Primarily with this one dude that U dont exactly like & who pisses you off relentlessly#but talking to him is kinda fun and you enjoy making fun of him & pissing him off. Loads of amusement !#and then you remember that you are ideologically opposed. like. intrinsically. and also he hates your guts for just Who You Are#im enjoying these vibes IMMENSELY. midvalley just makes things so Weird in a way im loving writing.#vash could make friends with almost anyone is kinda the baseline of it lol. and he could Change almost anyone too#now will there be any hope for this hate-friendship in the end? Uh. well. we'll find out later Together!
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*walks up to the mic* Sashannarcy from Amphibia
tbh, sometimes the “platonic explanation for this” is the more interesting one
#No shade to the ship itself#But for me a toxic but still genuine friendship is more interesting when it stays that way#Because showing that amount of love to your friends? Doing everything for them in spite of it not being the best thing for anyone?#devoted to them above all else because you don’t have anything else?#that is both touching and concerning when it’s platonic and opens the door for some fascinating questions and development#when it’s romantic it’s just kinda. The norm. Like oh OBVIOUSLY you’re gonna be obsessed with your girlfriends.#But with friends? There’s no expectation that they’ll be priority number one#what I’m saying is that their dynamic feels more special and complex when it’s platonic#when it’s romantic it kinda just feels like every other ship except it’s poly#Also maybe I’m a little salty because I saw art of aroace Marcy and was super excited and then someone in the notes was like#’oh is Marcy aroace? Does this means I can’t ship her?’#thats your concern????? Shipping??? Not celebrating her presumably canon identity?#I saw a post that said fandom views aromanticism as an obstacle and not an identity and they were spot on
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The worst feeling ever made is really wanting a hug from someone you don’t get to see as much as you used to anymore
#the worst part is#I DESPISED hugs and physical contact in general before#but god damn it bro taught me to actually?? like hugs??#although I don’t think I’ll ever be terribly fond of hand holding#he is legit one out of maybe three people allowed to hug me#‘just ask a family member for a hug! they’ll always say yes!!’#no#hugs from family never feel real#they don’t feel genuine#bcz I mean#they’re kinda obligated to love you#and the hugs just feel too stiff and practiced#idk if I’m explaining this#but you probably get what I’m putting down#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#wHY did the power of friendship have to teach me that physical contact isn’t completely evil and bad and terrible#having friends who love me is amazing as it turns out but it has Side Effects
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im meant for the streets but like regarding friendship instead of romantic partnership lol. i feel like every time i have a friend they only like me bc i will actually give them my time and attention unlike other ppl but in the meantime theyre always looking for the next best thing like someone more interesting compatible fun spunky etc im just like a placeholder to come back to every time they realize their new recruit isnt gonna work out like ok back to harriet ig. idk im probably overthinking and it's just that i've never rly had a good friend to begin with so it's not that deep but it rly does feel sometimes like ppl only care about me when theyre not occupied with someone new. and at this point now i cant even bring myself to put in the effort with any friends i might make cuz im like ur prob gonna end up half-assing this too so why bother lol. but i feel bad then cuz its like how can u form a bond when ur not putting the time in but idk if i even care anymore i think more n more i just keep accepting im not meant to have friends i dont think my personality suits it anyway bc i lov being alone
#also tho i feel like ppl tend to go all in at the beginning and act like they rly love u but then that naturally fades away#so it's like kinda exhausting for me to like go thru that honeymoon period in good faith like...#i dont loveu.... o.o i dont know u... and ull prob hate me? so why are we pretending#but ig its fun to pretend for a bit too and its like an icebreaker dude idfk anything maybe im jst socially inept (iam)#but also maybe i just expect more out of friendship than others like i do have friends theyre just like strictly ppl i do things with#not like ppl id talk to abt shit so like maybe thats just what most friends are anyway and im expecting too much?#either way this is rly not that deep idk why i just always crave platonic love#perhaps the problem is........................... literally everybody's main hobby in life is getting drunk and i dont drink lmao#like what tf they gonna do with me they not bringing me to the club so like ofc im not their friend#i need gamer neet friends who are boring as hell like me. which i mean thats most my 'friends' anyway its just rly shallow connections#i genuinely dont kno if i even want deeper friends tho like wat am i talking about sigh#maybe i dont appreciate what i have enough but maybe its also ok to want deeper connections
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Truthfully it would be easier if I just isolate myself from everyone simply because after so long of just shoving things down and being told to shove things down and being told to get over it and stop being sensitive I’ve become so much more sensitive after being so unfeeling and it’s ruining everything
Not even having aventurine could fix this 😔🙏 LOLLL
#I cannot go a single day without that stomach drop feeling#for instance when someone says something vaguely allusive to another#when someone says something mean to someone else#when someone casually mentions something#that I have yearned for for so long or just genuinely really really want like it’s nothing and I’m like oh .#and the things I refer to are not material really they’re just some aspect of friendship#most of the time#Eris’ situation forced me to put a lid on me feeling this way so I can be more selfless to the struggles of others#I remember my heart just dropping when I was on the dash late at night and just seeing her talking with this one girl while she was activel#ignoring me and truthfully I got scared of myself for feeling that way because it felt sinful to be upset at something like that#I was so ashamed#but now this is daily#to me being friends doesn’t need such grand gestures I think truly the depth of things is measured the lack of hesitation to do the smalles#things#and truthfully I can do this for as many people as needed but it wouldn’t really be reciprocated#and it’s fine; me doing anything is kinda an act of charity I’m not expecting something back from someone specific#I just wish god could reward me with someone of my own is all#as the days go by I don’t even know how much more I can tolerate before things go awry#permanently#but I just get this feeling I won’t be around to find out what being normal feels like#I know life is unfair and acknowledge that I’m the first to do so#but there is no way it’s this unfair#it’s almost like knocking on a hollow object and you expect to hear some echo or reverberation but even that aspect is empty and soundless#uhhh yeah#so that’s on how I have such embarrassing and bad coping mechanisms#dora daily#because I genuinely do not feel comfort anymore with anything except a few random things and even those are constantly ruined#it’s why I can’t concentrate because I seek out those comfort activities just so I don’t panic but I get comfortable#but it’s too comfortable and doing anything apart from said things makes me panic again so I’m just stuck in a loop
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Tw. Bimbo reader, dark content, noncon, dubcon, corruption kink, coercion, creampie, size kink, magic sex toy/onahole/fleshlight, loss of virginity, not proof read
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Thinking about being a childhood friend of a yandere duo.
You were just so friendly and cute, approaching them with candies in your tiny hands and offering it to them. So kind as you always play with them, and sometimes they would argue who'd be your husband when playing house. They often fought whenever they wanted to play with you but in the end, it always results to sharing you.
Middle school was a little different than Kindergarten. They get more protective when boys try to get close to you, painting them as insufferable brats that only want clout. Being neighbors with the wealthy kids, got you too much attention much to their liking, often getting bullied whenever you finally have some alone time, but this didn't get unnoticed as you wonder why that kid who pushed you on your locker, suddenly have bandage wrapped around his head and his reputation down.
Highschool is where the shift started. You wanted to explore more, finding new friends, and hanging out with other people, and they did not like that. You were just too dumb, they said. Too dumb to realize people manipulating you so that they can get close to them. Do you even realize that the girl from your class only talks to you about them? Dumb girl.
Safe to say, you never had a genuine friend in high school, not like you even had chance to form a deep level of friendship (by people who genuinely wanna be friends with you) by the way they hog all your attention and time.
College is where it gets difficult for them to spend time with you. Different schedules, classes, course. They even insisted you go to the same university as them. It's frustrating how little time you spend together, always with your stupid excuse of "working on an assignment".
Without you around, they definitely have a hard time relieving some tension. They couldn't just walt into your room and steal some panties scoot free without getting into trouble, even though they were star students and had plenty influence over the school. No, no, they won't put their reputation to ruin, they're your perfect best friends.
Despite them being a duo, they were quite different in terms of personality. One is patient and mature, thinking logical and more on the rational side. While the other is playful, outgoing and rash. Both have their charms that got everyone around their fingers. However, they wouldn't sleep with just anyone, no. It's hard to get their dick hard, always imagining your cute face whenever they try to fuck a desperate bitch to finally release some tension.
But your impatient friend had enough of some random girl, high pitch moans that's not yours annoying his ears. It's miserable to even hump his own hand, so hard and cold, different to what he imagine your tight warm cunt to be. This just won't cut it. He needs more, to finally feel your wet insides without you knowing.
So what's a good way to relieve tension?
Some good ol' fleshlight.
The moment it arrived at his doorstep, he straight up bolted to his door. Slamming the door close as he finally gets his hands on the toy after days of waiting. Fuck, he can't wait to use this thing.
It's like the half body sex toy he used to watch in porns. He was quite impressed by the details it had, he gotta give props for that, but that's not what he's after for. After reading the instructions, more like skimming and skipping most of the words. He use lubricant, using plenty of it and spreading it around the artificial pussy lips. Rubbing and feeling the flaps, like how he usually does. It's kinda weird that he's doing this for a toy, but he could just imagine it being your cunt, practicing his moves. After a few moments did he slide his thick finger inside the walls of the toy... How weird, the texture was oddly real, like it was alive. Well, that's probably some mechanic shit that the factory put there or something. This is his first time using a fleshlight and it cost a fortune through some sketchy website so it better be worth it.
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You jolted in your sit in class, listening to your professor's discussion about physics until you suddenly feel something brushing on your thighs. Your head panning around the room before looking ahead, brushing it off. It was probably the wind.
You yelp when something began rubbing your cunt, earning a few concern looks for you and your professor glancing at you before going back to his discussion. You shrink in your sit, head hanging low as you pressed your lips together. Confused and scared by the phantom touch assaulting your nether region. Clutching your skirt, you try to maintain confused whimpers as the touches didn't stop.
You're scared.
The moment something pushed inside you, you stand up and excuse yourself, running to the nearest restroom. Your feet quick as you open a random stall and sit on the toilet. Your breathing heavy as you shakily lifts your skirt, looking at the wet patch on your panty.
What's happening? Why are you wet? How can something touching you there? You're not imagining this, right?
Your mind raced as you become more terrified. Is a ghost haunting you? Tears pool on your eyes, sniffling as the assault become more aggressive.
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Fuck, this fleshlight was the best thing he ever bought. How was this even made? Whatever. He continues to pump his thick finger, inserting another one and he jump a bit as he felt the walls suck on his fingers. Damn, it can even do that? Just how realistic can this toy be? He's not complaining though.
He decided to touch the clit earning another tight squeeze. What a sensitive toy. He continues to play, eventually adding another finger. It was weird how the warm walls didn't run out of lube, if this were any normal toy it'd need to be lubricated after few minutes but this toy seems to produce it on its on.
He pulls out his fingers as he inspects the inside, it's undeniable that it's fake but the way it pulsates around nothing makes it a bit questionable on how it works.
Would your cunt also look like that? He could imagine your wrecked heaving face after fingering you. Poor little you never had something inside, let alone this thick fingers. He couldn't wait for the moment he'll ruin you.
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You're straight up crying as an additional thick sensation pumped your insides. Squeezing your thighs shut, like it's gonna do something to stop the phantom. Everything inside you screams to remove the intrusion but you didn't know how. Opening your legs slightly, your shaky fingers removing your panty to see what's happening inside your cunt... but nothing was there. Only a gape.
Your fingers shifts towards the gape, gasping as the invincible touch was able to touch you yet you couldn't even see or feel it. Squirming uncomfortably, as you open your legs more to try and get "it" out with your fingers. Uselessly grabbing air, whimpering and sobbing as you fail to interrupt with its continuous pumping. Your stomach twisting and an unfamiliar coil was starting to unravel, your breath hitching and legs shaking.
But it's abruptly stop as the phantom pulled away.
Finally, relief and a little bit of disappointment fills your chest. Slumping on the toilet, panting like you run a marathon. You shift a bit as you sit upright, freezing as something thick pokes your entrance.
No way...
Your brain panics, your gaze staring at the way your hole widens and your legs subconsciously spreading more to prepare yourself for the inevitable. You clutch the wall of the stall, each hand gripping the surface. Tears streaming down your face and your cheeks getting hot.
This can't be happening.
You felt the thick thing stretch you open.
***
Something about fucking a fleshlight should embarrass him. But nah, with you in his mind there's nothing to be ashamed. This is just practice to him after all, he'll do this things eventually.
With his heavy cock around his fingers, he taps the opening of the fleshlight. His other hand grips the hip. Rubbing along the slit, he collects lube running on the head of his cock, catching the clit in the process. He lets out a breath, as he finally starts pushing his cock inside.
He's quite big, so he's a bit worried if he'll fit in some shady toy but he's sure he'll fit in you just right, even if he had to force himself in your tiny cunt.
But there's no need for consideration when it comes to a toy.
He sheath inside in one thrust.
Hissing at the way the walls clings to him, tightly wrapping around his cock and pulsating as if rejecting a foreign object. Shit, why does it feel like a virgin?
Warm, wet, and tight. The perfect toy pussy for him, this could even rival a real pussy if he were being honest. No time for adjusting as he starts to thrust. Pounding the onahole, roughly gripping the hips and fucking hard. Shit shit shit why does this feel so good? This stupid toy feels a whole lot better compare to a random slut.
His hips going hard and the way he feels the inside pulsating, sucking all his worth making him groan. Such a tight fake cunt.
He wonder if he can break the toy.
***
With a silent scream, your head jerk up as the big stretch was too sudden for your body to take. Legs wide open as you try to create space for the large object. You sob as quiet as possible, as the phantom starts pounding hard at your sensitive cunt. You want to scream but held back, tears blurring your vision as you pray for it to end.
Whimpering and sobbing was the only thing you can do. Waiting for the thrusting to stop, you teeth bite your lip to stop noise from escaping. It doesn't sound like you at all, it's weird, you're scared and confused.
Your mind tries to think of a distraction, to think of anything but the mysterious assault. How is this even happening? What did you do to deserve this? Why you?
Your breath hitched as you feel the tight coil in your stomach again. Moaning a little as you feel pleasure rising though you. Your hands clasp over your mouth, muffling your noise. You shake your head as the coil gets tighter and tighter, your legs shaking as you stutter words of apology to whoever's doing this.
And it snaps.
Your vision going white, body stiffening and eyes going into the back of your head.
Ah. You never felt this... good before.
It takes you a few minutes to recover. Your limbs feel like jelly, your chest rising up and down in a slow manner, and you greedily gulp air.
You were tired and exhausted but you were glad the assault has stop after that. You groggily starts to lift you panty's up however you felt something dripping down your hole.
... you wonder what it was.
***
After that day, the mysterious phantom would touch you at random times, when you're showering, classes, or even in bed late at night. It was torturous, you were becoming paranoid and it didn't go unnoticed by one of your best friend.
He's helping you study in the library as you'd ask him for his guidance in physics. You would've asked your other friend, but you can just imagine him play with your hair or something along of not really helping you study.
You're breathe hitch as you feel the phantom ghost rubbing your cunt. Shrinking on your sit, uncomfortably rubbing your legs.
"Something bothering you?" He ask, looking a bit concern of your shiftiness.
"O-oh, it's nothing. Just a little tired lately," You reassured, smiling as you pretend to be fine.
His sharp gaze examined your face before dropping the subject, deciding to just help you study.
"If you need something to talk to. I'm right here, ok?"
You smiled forcefully, "I-I will... Thank you."
***
You could never bring yourself to tell someone about it. No one would ever believe you.
You're laying in bed waiting for the phantom, already memorizing the way it'll touch you. You brace for the touch as you can't help but feel helpless. Are you going to live like this your entire life? You don't want to...
But would someone be willing to listen to you? To believe you? You don't wanna bother your best friend, you knew how busy he's gotten the recent days and you're doubtful that he'll even listen to your story when he's the rational one. That means...
Your thoughts were interrupted by the intrusion as you clutch your pillow and close your eyes. You're panting as the phantom starts its routine.
You're scared... You're scared that it's starting to feel good.
No. You don't want to be alone anymore on this.
You need help. Badly.
You shakily gets up from bed, putting some jacket on as you heads towards someone who can help you... At least you believe who will do.
***
"Oh? What's my little darling doing here at this late of night?" He grins as he opened the door with the sight of you.
You fidget with your jacket as you feel small under his gaze, "P-Please help me."
He raised his eyebrow, his grin replacing with a thin line. Yeah, he's playful but he'll never joke around when you're having a problem, "Come inside, we'll talk there, sweetie."
Sitting on his couch, you took a deep breath as you prepare to tell someone about this problem of yours. He won't make fun of you right? He won't be weirded out, right? He's a reliable person and your best friend.
He sits beside you, a serious and concerned expression on his face. It was rare to see him like this, which encourage you to finally tell him.
By the end, you were crying and hiccuping in your hands about the experiences you encounter with that phantom. Feeling his hand rub your back, cooing at you in comfort. He pulls your head to rest on his chest, telling you that everything's going to be fine.
You sob out a thank you, finding relief to finally get it out of your chest.
Unbeknownst to you, the man was smiling.
***
He didn't know if God was on his side. But, he didn't expect this would happen.
Who would've thought that the toy he was playing with was connected with cute lil you?
He didn't believe it at first but the way you described the timing was too much of a coincidence. Sweet little thing, don't worry you won't experience any scary thing from now on.
"Sweetie, do you want me to chase that scary invisible phantom away?" He cups your cheeks in his hands, locking gaze with you.
You sniffle before nodding, "Y-Yes, please..."
He gave you a toothy smile before gently pushing you down on his couch. His fingers swiping away your tears, "Listen to me, ok? I need you to trust me on this." His nose touching with yours as he leans close.
"O-ok... I trust you."
Dumb little girl.
You shouldn't have said that.
Now you've sealed your fate.
***
He wonders what was going on with you back when he helped you study in the library. Something was very off about you, and you were clearly uncomfortable to brought it up.
He thinks of you very often even when he's busy and swarmed with school works. Sometimes, getting frustrated to even continue and wants to just go to your place. He massages his aching temple, resting on his chair before a box caught his attention.
Oh yeah, that stupid guy gave him that a few weeks ago.
He recalls their conversation about it, saying that it'll help him release some stress. Well, he's plenty stressed now so why don't he test it out now?
He saunters to the box, sitting on the floor to unravel it. Only to be surprised by the object inside it.
An onahole...
If he was his usual self he would've flung this across the room and throw it to the garbage bin. But sometimes he needs to be relieve as well, plus he's a man too,
He's not that picky too.
This'll do for him.
A temporary replacement while thinking of your cunt.
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#friend issues#2 of em#so first and foremost it’s so hard to have many friends who aren’t in the same friend group#because i have like 3 dif people asking me to do the same things at the same time and it’s such a mess#because i need to say yes to all occasionally and it messes everything up like there needs to be a schedule#which defeats what i wish friendships would be#like more chill and relax#as for the other issue. it’s a little more serious#i have some friends i really like#but sometimes#the way they treat me is kinda eh#like i know it’s not personal but sometimes i feel inferior almost?#like i came to college with the hopes of being more confident and ‘respected’#i always felt respected until when i was bullied in my senior year which absolutely broke me :(#i befriended some people i genuinely enjoy but they tease a lot and sometimes it gets too much#not in a malicious way but like why am i always being criticized or being made fun of even as a joke#and also#sometimes they call me (and everyone they’re close to) a bitch#it’s def in a joking way but . i dont like that at all#and even stupid stuff like ‘your mom’ jokes sometimes it’s just too vulgar and weird it bothers me greatly#i know it seems like they aren’t joking but i can tell they are#i think it’s just they haven’t really ‘read’ me as a friend and properly determined how to engage#if that makes sense#it’s just weird#because i like them but i cant help but feel like something’s been off with how i feel since coming back last month#i just am kind of lost in life at times struggling to find out what to do and how i want to engage with the world#and sometimes i feel like the way i am treated doesnt really help at all#this is my sign to go N C The therapist
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